“Thoughts of . . . Summer half, 1865”

“Thoughts of . . . Summer half, 1865”

A piece just eight bars long is pregnant with

Vague meaning and with secrecy. A man

(Not quite) is burdened with Victorian myth

Of sex as tight as whalebone girdles can

Impose on him.  On top of that he’s just a boy

At school still, stilled by regulations, “ought

And should,” and manly self-control.  To toy

With music, even seriously, distraught,

He manages eight measures and no more.

The heat of summer pulses through him.  He

Holds back the name he loves and tries to pour

It into music.  Restraint is the key.

The signature of time is everywhere

….And evermore.  Eternity is there.

This poem is part of a shorter sonnet sequence within this large sonnet sequence called The Encyclopedia Sonnetica.  The shorter sonnet sequence is called “A Lively Hope.”  I recommend you read this poem where it is set in its sonnet sequence.  To do that, search for “A Lively Hope” here in The Encyclopedia Sonnetica, or you may see an illustrated version the entire shorter sequence at
https://classicalpoets.org/wp-content/uploads/2018/02/A-Lively-Hope.pdf 
where it was first published.