I Used to Think Unfailingly of Charles When I Passed that Tree

I Used to Think Unfailingly of Charles When I Passed that Tree

 

I pass the giant redwood limbs each day

Still.  Something’s  altered.  It is not the tree.

It’s more I don’t react to it.  No sway

Disturbs its dignity.  A change in me

Has made me stop remembering.  Each limb

Droops down as if it has not failed to dwell

On him, the man who died.  I thought of him

Each time I’d passed.  I feel that I’m unwell,

Or otherwise my heart would always turn

To him.  I’d look and so I’d see the dark

Hulk louring high.  It sends a message, stern,

Condemning me.  I’m hardened like its bark.

In five years’ time I’ve turned away from love.

The tree is better.  It remains above.