I Do not Think the Boy

     I Do not Think the Boy

I do not think the boy will ever leave me,
But if he does, I’ll sleepwalk through the rest
Of time with Holy God’s dark rosary
In hand and fumble beads to make the best
Of  days  and  nights  and  years  and  decades  lost
To numbness in the chambers of the heart,
The  seconds,  minutes,  hours  that he’ll have tossed
Away, abandoning my love.  I’ll dart
From Christtoboozetootherboystotarts,
To Poetry of Wisdom for the Church,
To working with a peasant on farm carts.
If all else fails, I’ll have my absinthe perch.
..I’ll lose my hair.  I’ll hold on to my faith.
….I’ll die, if death’s permitted for a wraith.