Quintet of Sonnets about Jeanette

Quintet of Sonnets about Jeanette

 

                           

 

 

      Black and White

Her eyes cast down as if ashamed of style
And beauty, she is captured. She is held
Forever in the falseness.  All the while
This image has existed, it’s compelled
Jeanette to be perfection with a full
Dark lip weighed down by knowledge of a truth
She could not possibly have known, the pull
Of future agony, the vile, uncouth
Obscenity of cancer in the brain:
The camera could not see, nor could closed eyes
With love’s brows plucked, each one a perfect stain,
All heedless of malignancy’s surprise.
Those shoes don’t point to death. Those shoulders, squared,
Think nothing in the scene will be impaired.

Black and White and God

A portrait so contrived has got to be

Suspect.  When everything in nature runs

The risk of flaws and mutability,

Thalidomide-like chaos—from some suns

Collapsing to the opposite extreme

Of supernovae spewing death and heat

In a traumatic, monumental scream—

Such faultlessness is too divinely neat.

Some vast, horrific price will be exacted

For hubris on the scale in this picture.

Rough retribution will be enacted.

The cosmos will impose some just stricture.

  This image in its beauty is too odd,

    Outside the laws insisted on by God.

Black and White and Gray

A subtle veil with specks of velvet on
The lace surmounts the parting of her hair
And we can see, inside, the cancer drawn
Like spider legs.  The surgeons can’t repair
Gray matter that arachnid limbs have gripped
But we, with hindsight, see it all too well.
We see the way she lost her hair. It slipped
Down off that scalp.  Her tres chic hairdo fell
In slabs too early to the grave.  A blotch
Or two remained in mockery, a tuft
Or two of nauseating strands.  We watch
At frozen distance, sympathy rebuffed.
  She dies alone in ugliness.  We don’t
Go near.  We want a gesture, but she won’t.

 

  My Aunt Jeanette was Beautiful like a

        Hollywood Glamor Queen and

          my Mother Wanted to Wear

                 Jungle Gardenia

The taste of Florida sunshine, its smells

And colors, orange blossoms against green

Leaves, evergreen in sunlight, wetly swells

Across the tongue and gives a fragrant sheen

Inside the mouth when flame vine nectar spreads

Throughout the senses.  Foliage creates

Dark forms for Spanish moss to hang from heads

Of live oak trees.  This all provides the spates

Of import like philosophy in years

To come—or what philosophy would want

To be, were it less grandiloquent.  Tears

Of ancestors, descendants are the font

That meanings come from in a day of heat

And shimmering wet.  Their doctrines are complete.

 

Imprisonment of Perfect Features

in Garden Darkness

I try to think just why this pic was locked

Away inside a barrel in a shed.

Was it because her sisters’ love was balked

By such extreme unfairness?  Had this led

To jailing of this image in the dark

Beyond where white gardenias grew, beyond

Hibiscus blossoms?  Loveliness too stark,

So stark that others could not feel as fond

As she had felt about herself, was that

The cause of banishment to blackness in

The airtight space?  Was she an autocrat

Of beauty needing exile for this sin?

  Plain jealousy might easily prolong

    Such penance for this silent, fugal song.